Forever and Always

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 16:31:28 GMT

i changed to tumblr. it is my new love. if i love you enough, you will get the link.

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 17:49:36 GMT

Murphy's law. though im just back from bali. even though it was a super relaxing trip and it opened my eyes to so many things.. the minute i got back. reality hits me. so many things to do. im sad cause i miss bali. im angry cause starhub sucks cause i came back hoping to watch my liverpool recordings.. hubstation decided to mess up and my playlist is gone. = no more jonas. no more torres no more everything i recorded. im confused about yog and my ability t cope. im distracted with internal stuff. im angry cause customs confiscated my stuff. im busy with all the unpacking and projects and assignments and juggling all the things i have to do. christmas stuff and everything. im angry cause i totally forgot about mydriving thing and the whole of feb is fully booked. im jealous of my cousin who has nothing to do until august. im happy that i had bali. human nature eh. all the bad stuff. one good thing. it seems that the more i try to keep you with me, the more i lose you. (what happened to the whole bali inspired me thing? idk. i guess, when it hits you, it hits you)

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 08:34:06 GMT

Im back from Bali. im dont want to come back. this post is about all my thoughts and the stuff i did in Bali so yes its gonna be long long long.

Day 1. Project meeting with Ben, Jacq, JH, Calvin and KY. headed home with jacq and i realised i was running a little late. talked with jacq on the bus and shes leaving for malaysia the day after i do. hopefully she had a safe trip there. =) rushed home. packed the last minute stuff then off t the airport. Met jie and co and had teh behng! super shioks. i was definitely excited cause ive never been to bali before and i wanted to getaway from all the stuff thats happening in singapore. so did my cousin. she had a rough year and we both needed to have sometime to hang out and chat and chill. on the plane we 3 girls talked a whole lot. thought about the stuff i wanted to do and about how being in LRM taught me a lot of stuff. i didnt know until later in the trip. something happened on the plane and jie gave feedback and the girl didnt come back to continue and follow up. MISTAKE! never study LRM in tp for sure. hahaha. reached the hotel. kinda so-so. not so grand but they have a lot of channels and soccer channels! i watched liverpool vs arsenal 3 times in total ok! a lot of mosquitos in the room and stuff. had dinner and they have weird designs on their plates. i know bali has a lot of lizards.. but they dont have to put it on the plates as a design. its gross and its spoils my apetite. pictures later in the post. then we walked by the beach in almost complete total darkness. it was scarry but really nice. saw SO SO MANY STARS!!!!! and an orion's belt. the waves were huge thick lines rushing on the shore. its just beautiful. oh and the bali immigrations officers stopped me and kept asking me questions. then i was like stunned cause their accent is really strong but they are speaking in english. so then jie realised i wasnt with them and called for me. then she asked them what happen. and they said cantek.HAHAHA THEN i was like okay great. thanks for saving me jie. scarry shit.

Day 2. American Breakfast and headed off for our first stay in a villa. its called four@drupadi. shocked by how gorgeous the villa looked. tanned by the pool and went swimming! then time for some atas shopping! haha spent quite a bit. Dinner at spanish restaurant. spanish reminds me of torres so anything served.. i will love it. hahaha! okok enough. had grandmas meatballs. spanish paella and eggs. had foire gras ducks liver.its when the people force the ducks liver to grow so huge that it bursts and dies. so yes i tried that. not as bad as i expected. talked a whole lot about friends, school, family and everything. i loved it. made me think a whole lot about opinions and people who matter and those that dont. headed back to the villa and skyped with uncle gary, jamie and aunty catherine. they were super cute i swear. haha showed them around the villa. then played taboo. singapore edition. all the time i spent in sch playing with darren ben and jacq and co paid off. i was in the top 2. same wave length with bryan. haha super funny. pictures and all later.

Day 3. Talked t KY in the morning or something. then had american breakfast. edy, our butler is super nice i swear. they practically do everything for you. the manager is called bagus and they're all REALLY REALLY NICE PEOPLE. its funny how in singapore people are getting educated and the serivce sucks and you are forced to "tip" which is our GST. over there you feel that u WANT to tip them because they're really nice and they are so sincere in helping you. so then headed to the beach to tann and i got burnt. headed to Body Works for some pampering. had a full body massage. they strip you down and give u a massage and then apply exfoliating stuff on you and bathe you. as in really use soap and bath you like a kid. then put yoghurt on me! i was like omg. haha damn nice smell and feels really good. skin feels so so smooth. then had a flower bath. its called mundilulu. Did manicure and decided on the blue. did it and bryan told me... megan fox had this colour when she was doing jennifers body. hahaha! Bryan did his nails too!!!!! freaking funny. all of us were burnt so when they massage it did hurt a little. and bryans tanning colour is freaking different. i got a picture of it. Dinner at this italian restaurant. pasta is good. pizza is good. apple juice is freaking good. shopped a little and i realised i looked like miley cyrus minus the face. just picture her hat. her hair minus the face. just the upper body. KY doesnt believe me but haha. ok. Jie said i got justin timberlakes style gg on. so they called me justins GF. hahaha freaking cute. back to villa then skyped with daddy. he kept asking why i look so happy. =) he said i look cool!! with my miley cyrus hat. showed him arnd the villa then checke my fnb grade. spoilt my holiday i swear. then chatted with ky then slept.

Day 4. Morning then watched some matches. packed my stuff then changed to another villa called serene villas. super nice. jie introduced herself as "belle,LING LING!" cause they couldnt cath her name. haha freaking funny. off to shop and came back. played in the pool. SUPER BIG I SWEAR. then there were power surges. so we were swimming in the dark. haha then kuomang, our butler in the second villa said, if blackout again just scream. haha he literally screamed like a girl hahaha. then bryan started singing the lion king song. then jie also started singing and its super cute. bryan had this borat thing going on. " no chance" " verli nice" hahaha super funny. then we played poker and the penalty is cannon ball into the pool or get thrown in. if you fold then u have to drink a whole glass of water. its a lot. i dried myself aldy and i kept drinking cause i didnt want to get wet. then they suddenly have this rule that if u want to pee u have to cannon ball. only then u can pee! i had to cannon ball. hahaha!finally saw how torres scored. beautiful goal i must say. NGOG'S one was like gerrards one. Gerrard number 2. slept.

day 5. Frog in bryan and kors room. haha damn cute. its under the bed. gross also. manager asked us how was our sleep and everything and we told him the situation. some people were listening to super loud indian music at 5-6am that caused us to be super annoyed. but it was cute cause jiejie took a table and climbed up the bamboo thing and tried to shhhh them. funny funny. the butlers and managers were all really nice. makes me realise how blessed i am. i remember when kuomang fell while holding 2 coconuts cause the floor was slippery. broke my heart. super guilty i swear. i know we paid for it. the kind of service. but who are we to have someone be this nice to us and so sincere. serve us from head to toe. what good did we do? nothing. because i have the luxury to travel and experience these kinds of service and see how they work and get such a low salary... made me feel that all the petty things tht happened to me before this trip.. its nothing. compared to these people. they work. serve. so sincere. imagine if they got guests who are not as polite or are very annoying guests. i dont want to imagine how his life would be like. its horrible. it really opened my eyes to the things that are happening around me.made me appreciate all the things that are happening. all the talks during dinner. made me think so much. jie was saying how when things happen... no matter what. its a learning experience. you learn about urself. the people around you and how things should be done or could have been. whatever it is. good or bad. its a learning experience. the managers, butlers and housekeepers were super nice and ill remember them forever. and at the italian and spanish restaurants.. all the ingredients i learnt in fnb. it paid off. but not on paper. but it comforted me a little. then shopped. went to this sunset bar kinda thing. drank strawberry mojito. pretty good pizzas they have and watching the sunset is beautiful. we're suppose to see the ball. which is the sun go down but yesterday the clouds were so thick we just got a regular sunset. but it was still gorgeous. headed back t the hotel and packed and headed to the airport. the sand that i planned to bring back for Darren and myself was confiscated. so did my mosquito repellant and tanning oil. i was super pissed. the sand was super heavy ok. i brought it around and all that. super pissed. i asked jie to bring back some if she is going back to ku de ta beach. shes still there with carl. hopefully she can bring it back. Darren's words came true for me. so hopefully she can get it for me. emailed her already. so picture time?

seems like the more i keep you with me, the more you're drifting away. no matter how hard i try to keep you.

Sat, 12 Dec 2009 15:25:42 GMT

yesterday slept at 5am because i couldnt sleep. something happened and yea. its been like that for a while. a lot of downs but the ups were really high ups. my hand looks disfigured thanks to pool that day.it was yesterday. haha. some people think its just an ant bite while darren and ben thinks i got tofu fingers. its really ugly and painful. Jacq's pooling skills are like omg. she wanted t get koi but changed her mind. maybe another time jacq! then we can shop around PP. so yes it was funny for everyone to laugh at me miss the cue multiple times and getting my hand injured. haha injured is such a strong word. hey hey, i got some crazy skilled shots ok!

im happier now. things are starting to clear up and i realise im not online to read forums(yes i do read band forums) and explore the internet anymore. there is a better technology called TV! Watching tv cant hurt you right? and furthermore, ill be away on a trip to bali. many people are going overseas.

im going to bali.
Michelle is going to USA!!!!!! omg im freaking jealous i swear. its gonna be like average 6 degress or so if im not wrong so please bring more clothes to wear. i wore 6 layers the other time. when it snowed in vegas, which it didnt since 1976, i wore about 8 layers. felt like a puffball. hahahaha! you're gonna have so much fun! disneyland and california themepark omg michelle! pack me in ur suitcase. OH OH try their pink lemonade! really good stuff. VEGAS MICHELLE!!!! Universal studios is really good too. and stay for the lighting on the sleeping beauty's castle at disneyland. if im not wrong there will be fireworks too.
Sim is going to Phuket.
Jacq is going to malaysia.
Darren's going to Japan.
My uncle and his family are in Japan already.

its just tons of people going overseas. i remember Gevin saying that imagine if the whole of china travel to another country, the whole world will rotate the opposite direction. haha talking about Gevin. tomorrows LIVERPOOL VS ARSENAL. hahaha. i hope i have some luck at winning since Jacq says she thinks liverpool will win. so did darren. JH's one sure wont hit. haha okok maybe will. we'll see. i need to prepare myself for tomorrow! though im not on the pitch, i have to prepare myself mentally! haha ok nuts.

so im a millionaire. just changed my sgd to rupiah and yes, im a millionaire! hahahahaha. ok joke. im excited for Bali now because its really a place to relax and since ive not been having the best of days lately, its a good way to unwind. furthermore, ill be spending more time with my cousins. the people i grow up with so its good to have them around to kinda keep me grounded and remind myself of the times we had and how i was like last time. people change so this is a good way to you know. haha. back to the good ol' days. ill be staying in a villa for 2 days and they have ipod docking systems. OMG!!!! haha what the freak seriously. its really cool. first thing i do is to chiong and choose a room thats beside the pool. imagine this. open the doors from your room and there you go. a pool for you. HAHA EXCITING! like those american houses. i cant wait. beach. fun in the sun and music and drinks and people who aint so serious all the time and have fun with. =) what more can i ask for right?

yesterday, slept with my ipod playing on my speakers. sucks when you have to use music to stop yourself from thinking at night. woke up this morning, watched halloween then off to T1 for MPK! finally tried the tarts and icecream. didnt spend only 10 bucks. haha cause ben and co always laugh at how i can keep to my budget. wouldnt say that when im betting on soccer. so quality time with family and accompanied my brother to get a haircut. the guy wanted to cut my hair too. haha my brother's one is not enough. he wants to cut mine. haha. he said he will be very careful with colouring my hair cause he knows about my condition. he was actually worried. haha. nice guy nice guy. so had a package deal and next time, ill go to him. =) then my brother and i lost my mums credit card. haha she gave us 2 and now we're left with one. duh. then we used that credit card and went to have Dian Xiao Er. suppose to be TCC but plans changed. my brother claims that i will love it and i actually did surprisingly. the exective set is good. 2 of us. about 3 dishes inclusive of sharksfin soup = $100 bucks. freaking worth it i swear. its good. then they have this soup as desert. HORRIBLE. its supposedly to be top grade and good for the skin. i forced myself to drink it. honestly, these are the kinds of things my dad had to force down my throat. went to times and i got addicted to torres's book. he looks really good and omg i want that book so badly. 50 bucks. lets hope for it when christmas comes. i already told my aunt that i want it to be a surprise. so see what ill get? came home and my brother and i decided to smash our keyboad to see whats in there. haha seriously damn cool. i wont say wahts inside cause its really cool. haha try smashing yours. quality time with my bro and i love it. told him stuff and he told me stuff and its just really cool.

so tomorrow 12am match. monday school at 11am. settle it and im off. so to those who will be going overseas.. take care and have a safe flight! =)

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 15:16:11 GMT

ive lost what ive just got back. never felt so guilty or dumb in my life.

from the bottom of my heart, i apologise.
cause i cant even forgive myself.

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 12:27:45 GMT

You know there are times when you want to say something so badly but you know
you shouldn't cause of the consequences. This Is one of those moments.

Just a random thought. Does god judge people?
If he doesn't I don't think anyone should. Especially be so quick to do so.

Elaine posted something the other day and made me think a little
hi Elaine! Haha. She said smth about not being mean to someone ESP when you barely know the person.
Was that it Elaine? If it is then I totally agree with you.

I know no one is perfect. Cliche I know but life would be less painful if people stop being tactless. Agree?

Things that happened recently was blown out of proportion.
There was no need for it to be like this. But I've learnt a lot about myself. And my dear friend.
It wasn't a serious matter but was put across as though it was. Like I killed someone kind.
I'm glad it's over.
Whatever happens, which I know something will happen again, I'll be smarter. And mentally prepared.
This is how u prepare fr life right?

Sorry I'm using my phone so no lj cut.

Nice talking to you today sim. Thanks for your ears and concern.
You're such a busy woman. But nvm, u and I will find a way.. Since we have no fate. Haha.
Love you since long long time ago. :)

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 06:21:53 GMT

its over. and im stronger than ever.

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 09:46:12 GMT

Im back. other than all the unhappy things that happened to me recently.. i had fun today with Ameer, Ben and co. Its been a long time since we hanged out like this and its hella fun. made me forget some unhappy stuff.

highlights(haha like match highlights):
-KY shaved his head. didnt dare to touch it.
-was almost late for pom. calvin was wondering where i was. haha at least someone remembers that i exist.
-Fish and co.
-Ameer is really funny with the screw and gaying with darren.
-calvin got whacked by darren and ben. haha.
-Darren is like freaking strong. the way he fight with calvin like some martial artist. haha. calvin was literally on the floor.
-Ben fought with calvin too. all the playful kind of WWE. freaking funny and darren and i just watched them fight. this uncle came and asked calvin to use his leg. freaking funny.
-talked about dopey from 7 dwarfs and all.
-i saw this guy with this super big present. from toys' R us and darren kept laughing. no idea why he was laughing. he said its not a present. ok maybe its not from toys'R us but i thought i saw the logo?! nvm ill ask darren again.
-Torres is back according to darren.

Bali this coming monday. i cant wait for friday. =) finally can seeeeee you.
Bali spells JETSKI(charlie's angel feel again. hoooha!), fun in the sun, parasailing, food, villas and SHOPPINGGGGGGGG. jie said shoppings good. awesomeeeeee. getaway from this mess. FINALLY. THANK GOD.

i have no idea why polylife is so problematic. like what someone said, its just my luck.

just walk away and dont look back,
cause if my heart breaks, its gonna hurt so bad.

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 13:32:55 GMT

im super busy now and a little frustrated. who in the world needs to do differentiation in the real world right? so i have marketing case study to study. test to study for tomorrow. compile the stuff for the marketing project. commskills job hunt crap. econs article for ben by next wednesday including analysis. watch singapore dreaming and write an analysis. socio individual essay on how race, religion or gender impacted my life. omggg im screwed.

Other than all these things i have to do, im texting my maid now. haha. i admit k. miss her like shit. her annoying voice when she keeps telling me to come and eat. i know right, eat also need her to tell me. miss how she always tell me that she cant sleep cause my ipod is on too loud or my singing is disrupting her sleep. its seriously been a while since i heard all of those and at least have someone to rely on at home. shes getting engaged and thank god she will be coming back. (sorry a bit emo now.) she gonna have another 2 year contract. idk what will happen to me after that 2 years. its funny how u can be so attached to someone who is of no relation to you, by blood or whatever and can mean so much to you. it just hit me that shes not here with me. going through all the school stuff is making this whole thing even more difficult. that explains why ive been fucking feisty.when i say fucking i mean some serious shit. oh godddd i hope the days pass faster so she can come back already.

i wont see her until im back from bali. the days seem so long and draggy that sometimes i find it unbearable. i dont think i can carry out my plan tonight. which is try to clear my commskills and maketing today. suddenly feel so freaking emo that i have no mood to do anything. oh god. I TOLD HER NOT TO SMS ME. CAUSE ILL FEEL FREAKING EMO. BUT SHE STILL DID.
what does that show? she is annoying. haha. ungrateful kid i am.

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 13:43:00 GMT

i think im becoming more violent these days. i think its just at home i have to settle my own stuff and stuff in school have been driving me crazy. ( i drive myself crazy.. thinking of you.. HAHA its the songgggg) okay so. marketing project, im the leader and i think its a mistake. Ben told calvin that he thinks my leadership skills have improved. muhahaha thats my motivation there. too many things to do. so little time. cliche i know. Little time with my dearest= cranky me. dearest= torres= my ipod. hahaha this is fun. im exhausted.

So there you go, this is an update. HAHA happy now?

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 10:06:47 GMT

yesterday i was on the phone with singtel. i finally can change my plan to youth plan. UNLIMITED SMS thats what it means! haha the cooliest. finally. i dont have to feel the pinch when i send one text message. haha. today i went down to tm singtel and finally changed my plan. daddy got a new phone. he likes it so yea. ill just stick to my iphone. its the best already. haha. came home. started to clean my room. its super clean now. ever since sha left for home, my room was as messy as ever. was, cause now it isnt. HAHA. so yesterday while i was waiting for time to pass. i did something for marketing project. effing cool i think. did pom tutorial. had no clue how to do econs. so i did some only. havent practise calculus nor have i studied for marketing test on wednesday.

imparted my sociology intelligence to JH. he got higher than me for socio quiz. this shows that you should never be too kan chiong to finish your quiz first. it feels good to have the whole room to myself. the whole bed to myself. =) liverpool vs man city today. HAHAHA.

want to watch kumar's stand up comedy thing. asked darren, JH. havent asked the rest. only a few are eligible cause its m18 according to darren. oh wells. 3 more days to unlimited SMSES! i need it so badly. i dropped my iphone yesterday. down the flight of stairs. no scratches on the phone but on my heart. hahahahaha. the new week is beginning and im not excited.

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 07:46:56 GMT

So just said bye to Darren. We're at lounge.
I'm listening to Michelle branch and being emo cause I
found out I failed my calulus test. It's expected but I thought
there might be a miracle. Listened to wherever you go by the calling
the whole night yesterday. Love that song.
Recently I've my addiction for nsync again.
I just can't bring myself to be all smiley cause 10% of your
overall grade is kind of a big deal. Well to me it is.
Darren lied about having green day tickets. Still dare to
laugh when I said it's all about having connections.
Sociology tut now. Update again soon

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 14:08:39 GMT

long day. point form. ill try. haha. school. late for commskills. did group discussion. i was super happy. made a suggestion that was brilliant. haha. dont mean to brag but its been a while since i did something smart. haha. ben almost killed me. didnt want to be a spy for him. oh wells. off to bizzpark with Darren, Andrew, Ameer and Jianhan. watched them eat. then fnb. doing lime leaves. grouped with JH. my class super enthu over everything that happened in fnb tutorial. field trip to markets. settled. ate mee pok. left for haw par villa. 1hr 20 mins journey. Cold. Funny. Long. love the bus ride. rained. heavily. walked arnd harpar villa in the rain. fed the mosquitos. im sure they had like buffet dinner while we were there. Took notes. They laughed at my hair being the wettest. is there even such a word as wettest. okay then ben said its like some herbal essence commercial for me. haha. super funny. Jacq was being the funniest. she and i had evil plans. only we know. headed back. took 10 with JH. TM. fingers still numb. cannot even text. my fingers were not agile. haha. Fish and Co-ed. Bought new iPhone casing. now whoever who wants to use my phone has to have short nails. later the red colour get scrached out then it'll be yucky. Im tired. Got assignments to do. Printing to do. Packing of my room to be done. Send sha off on sunday. Study. Rest. try to figure out what Ben calvin and i wrote today in the rain. Tired but today was fun. Im gonna miss it when year 2 comes. i dont want it to end.

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 13:22:09 GMT

So hello everyone! im feel exceptionally happy today. moods are moods huh?
so yesterday i watched Nsync Live from madison square garden DVD and omg i love them.
used to love lance bass, JC and JT. =) memories. haha
anyway, school started early and it was okay, CDS were dumb.
For calculus, did tutorial and failed my math test. i used darrens calculator and i totally forgot to get used to it before the test.
i didnt know where the necessary buttons were and everything. took so much time to figure out the calculator that i have no time for the paper. but the paper was those look easy but confusing/ difficult kind. and i was careless with the cube root thing. oh wells. leave it to fate.
Socio was roleplaying. this guy in my class super funny, really.
waited for Jianhan with jacq and yes that was the best part of the day. haha. right jacq?
off for lecture then sent jacq to the bus stop and waited with JH for daddy to come.

tomorrow im going on a field trip. too many field trips i have.. haha marketing and all that jazz.
im addicted to the remix version of Its gonna be me, I Drive myself crazy and it makes me ill. All by Nsync.
I told Darren that i am gonna quit betting on soccer. hopefully that can be done. ian kept telling me to quit too.
Im STEEL not feeling well. the bug is spreading around the class. Ben caught it already.

i dont want to change class. seriously.

~Baby when you finally,
get to love somebody,
guess what?
its gonna be me.~ ( Sorry, i just love the song) HAHA.

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 13:15:31 GMT

Ive been super unlucky these days.

1. Im ill. i think cause i had ice cream.
2. Aussie trip is probably cancelled.
3.fought with -. totally killed any excitement i had.
4.calculus test tomorrow. i consider it unlucky.
5.Sha's going home in a few days.
6. my calculator doesnt do some freaking equations so i need to borrow darrens.
7. POM lecture cancelled.
8.Torres not playing for another 3 weeks or so. thats the worst.

i think its pretty unlucky if you ask me. and i have no proper help for maths. only jacq attempts to help. like seriously help and not demoralise me with unnecessary words. GRISELDA JOHN. I NEED YOU TO FREAKING HELP ME.

Because this person wants to remain annoymous.... but its very much what i need to hear.

its gonna be a battlefield between u and calculus

torres's ur assistant

liverpool's ur flag

so u can only charge and win

k? (:

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 08:05:37 GMT

"when you fight fire with fire, you just get burnt."

classic statement said by cyrus on disneychannel. we all had enough of this crap so this is where it ends.

so i had a weird dream last night, and i kinda loved my second dream. haha and yes i had 2. liverpool match on tuesday at 4am. so im not sure if im gonna watch it. most probably i am. haha. but pom is the problem. not sure if ill be able to be energetic for that.

later everyone's coming to my place for chilli crab. my mum organised this event because sha will be heading home for a month. she's leaving next week. seriously, i didnt even realised it was next week. i have to be super independent from then on. well, only for a month. haha. hopefully everything's well. or getting better. cause if it doesnt, ill go nuts because of the commitment ill have at home and in school.

I need to stock up some maggie mee already. haha. Jacq has to do a better job with my nutrition stuff cause ill be needing a whole lot of it. hahaha. talking about needs, i need unlimited smses. i think when you do actually have it, the world is at your feet. haha seriously. eelynn has it. she puts it to good use too. she lets us know about the bus stop shelters and the next thing you know, she will be informing you on daily weather forecasts. haha. but seriously, unlimited smses. who in the world still only has 500. oh wait, thats me.

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 14:21:32 GMT

Im honestly pissed. it has nothing to do with school or anything, just stuff going on at home. not technically but considered at home. this is gonna sound really lame but. im pissed cause i have to choose between 2 holiday destinations. Hong Kong and Australia. (i sound like a brat i know). i just think that if people are of different wavelengths, so no matter what, there will be conflict. so i think i should ultimately do what i want to do.

School has been suckish. Jacq has all the luck in the world but i dont. no such luck cause ALL the unlucky stuff happens to me. Individual assignment format.. "CHEERS" and other stuff. i admit i got lucky cause i met a group of people i didnt know i would have so much fun with like Calvin and co. and never did i expect to find someone like Jacq after sjc. no one can replace those group of people in sjc and 5Charity but i honestly didnt imagine in my wildest dreams that i would meet such good friends in poly. i miss my life and my friends in sjc but poly turned out better than i expected thanks to people like Jacq and Belicia and Raylene and Ben and company. i guess you cant have everything and the best of both worlds. i dont think i have such luck. look at me, ranting on and on when i have almost everything a girl my age would need and want. like what griselda and simran would say.." think of the people in africa."

so anw. today came to school by myself. bussed then walked from safra to school. a long walk i must say but i loved it. time for me to clear my head and stuff. then waited for commskills pbl to start then had breakfast with Belicia and Jacq. Jacq left rather quickly cause her PBL was gonna start. i must say she looked pretty today. =) Bel, Raylene and i told her today but why be so stingy with complements right? i love having breakfast with Belicia and Raylene and the rest but today was just Bel and i. loved it. =) okay so off for f and b, i messed up my tutorial.. back to my luck issue again. haha. Jacq told me something that made me shoot to the sky like rocket today. haha she said she felt as though she havent seen me in ages and that she missed me. Sorry jacq if this was suppose to be just between you and me. i thought that this is something i have to read about when i look back on my life. haha. and me too jacq. what you told me... right back at you. haha.

so off to bizzpark, slack. see people walk walk talked. then i left. went to tm to bet on soccer. headed home. jacq called. ate. jacq called. off to safra. played some games. jacq left. i have no hand co-ordination. played monopoly and taboo. SUPER FUNNY I SWEAR. Ben and i alliance at first. then i bully calvin. then i lost money. then Jian Han always give me money. haha then JH and calvin aliance. Ameer and ben alliance. i needed to leave so alliance with JH and calvin. THEY LOST. bloody hell. haha all my property give tham and they lost. haha. pizza hut with family then home. now im stuck to HK VS Aussie in December. someone help me. oh and im enjoying koi bbtea now. =)

Raylene and Belicia.

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 09:20:53 GMT

Honestly, those 2 are the funniest i swear. haha. spent most of my day with those 2 lovelies and i had fun. after pom, left with raylene to tm and waited for belicia for duber long. she got a headache so got excuse. haha. while waiting, raylene and i had our bonding time and we made plans to make Belicia feel guilty. 3 of us had Popeyes and it was so much fun. talking about stuff and laughing about the silliest things. went wallet shopping cause belicia wanted a new one and we talked about Raylene's future kids. haha like her daughter playing with voodoo dolls and knives instead of barbie dolls. shes the kind of mother who will say, hey lets go get a tattoo and a naval piercing to her daughter. HAHA damn funny lah i swear. then walked arnd then back to school. didnt get to watch jennifers body or any other movie because of the timeslots, unfortunately. but still i had fun. =) fnb lecture and belicia, darren and calvin were super funny. Belicia eats everything and anything. but she doesnt eat clams cause she would " get diarrhoea INSTANTANEOUSLY" quoted by her as you can see. bloody hell. the way she said it... EXTREME. hahaha. then calvin kept on wanting to eat the octopus and everything. darren meowed when the lecturer was talking about the catfish. haha and yea it was funny. so wasted time then headed home! havent done anything productive though. im gonna start soon.

i cant stop listening to ronan keating and "halo".

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 07:07:58 GMT

i was where you were. make sense?

okay i feel a ton of things flooding my mind. i feel that time is not enough. i need to do so many things and i wanna do so many things like go to ion. need to do projects and essays and assignments and printing and tutorials and doing math practices. i need to go to ubi to settle my driving thing thats bugging me at the back of my head. and im so tired that i miss my favourite tv shows. man man, its week 2 and im feeling the heat. not literally. people keep annoying me i swear. sometimes its not funny anymore so please just give it a rest. i havent placed my soccer bets yet. =( jacq called me after her class today and she said she ------. oh wells. no such luck for me.

i think that i rested on my laurels for way to long and now starting the whole drill is making me exhausted. but im happy that i get to see the usual group of people and go through this together. well, almost together.. im motivated to get things straight and to prove that i can do it. so.. distractions? no thanks. think and think about stuff thats bothering me? no thanks. Happy pills? YES PLEASE.

so im not online as much. im dont read blogs or forums anymore. i dont even do a lil research on what i bet anymore. what does this show?

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 11:39:36 GMT

Im writting on the bus home. Benefits of having data plan, haha.
So forgive me if I have typo errors. It's been so long since I was so eager to update.
Thursday has been one of the days I dread the most.
Because I have calculus and sociology CDs. Not used to the people but I'm adapting.
Saw the people I wanted to see and had so much laughters today.
Lectures were boring and I found out that arsenal beat Liverpool 2-1. Darren told me so I was like zxz.
Then I did some dumb "let's go" action and everyone laughed at me.
I swear it wasn't intentional but everyone looking and laughing at me made me blush like no tomorrow.
According to ben and ky, torres jersey is plastered on my face. Cause the jerseys red. Haha.
Then off for half n hour calculus thn met Darren jacq Calvin and eelynn at library.
Darren did the whole French accent thing which was funny. He did the heart beat thing which was super cool.
Then off for sociology. Formed group mates and doing Singapore dreaming.
Updated jacq at bizzpark then we both got excited.
Sociology lecture then met jacq after. We both got hyper cause she's my nutritionist.
She reminded me of what happened earlier cause I was blushing again.
We got super high and she got a shock on the bus cause the bus made a loud sound.
She screamed. Hahahaha. Seriously jacq is ultra funny. :)

so much laughter on the worst day of my week. Not expected. :))

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 10:01:07 GMT

i think taking calculus could be one of the slightly bigger mistakes ive made since the start of this term. i even forgot what factorization means. no no i know what it means but i didnt know what i should do.at least now i have some clue. haha after calvin jacq and eelynn tried to help me during our meaningless pom lecture. feel like such an idiot. starting would be tough but i promised myself that i will try at least. so whenever i have spare time i will do math questions.

i didnt know i would be one of those who read the sports section on the bus. haha because now torres is EVERYWHERE. OMG IM LOVING IT. HAHAHA TORRES IS EVERYWHERE TO ME. when i close my eyes, its you i see. youre everything i know that makes me believe, im not aloneeeeeeeee. hahaha okay ill stop.

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 09:19:58 GMT

number 1. Do research on commskills.
number 2. Print notes.
number 3. Practise calculus.
number 4. do tutorial questions.

im motivated as you can see. no maybe not because i havent started on it yet. haha.

First week of school was okay i guess. printing all the notes etc now and im so confused because there are simply too many. watched my sisters keeper and its the best. i love it. make me feel so apprecative of all the things that happened to me and also those that didnt.

oh and i bought a new speaker and im loving it. =)

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 14:23:38 GMT

school. f and b lecture. totally like bio. forgot everything but its coming back to me. waited for 2 hours for basic calculus lec to start. killed time at bizpark and hanged with Tim, faruq and some new friends. they're super funny really. then off for calculus. went for like 15 mins to hear him say some errors and i was lost. then i headed home. what an eventful day.

i wanna drop calculus cause number one its loner to the max. and there are projects on calculus. i forgot everything already and its tough cause i think basically everyone has a math background. then faruq and andrew asked me why i took calculus. and im like ????. honestly, idk. haha. but i have a lot to prove. prove to people who think i cant do it. prove to myself i can do it. prove to miss teo that she's right about me. prove to my family that what they think of me is true. omg. but i got kimhock. wth?

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 07:45:04 GMT

First day of school and im determined to make things work. i have to do well for calculus. Early in the morning, i met up with jacqueline and i predicted she will wear white and SHE DID. haha im psychic. so then met the rest at the CDS place because jacq needed to opt for basics of nutrition. i finally got to see the scar Ben got on his leg for stepping on a stonefish. super scarry but he pretends not to see it. haha oh wells. slacked in class with 6 people while the rest tried to settle their CDS in 10 minutes, but totally failed. Did project groupings for commskills and im working with Belicia and Ameer again and plus Crystal, Ameer, Darren and this year 2 guy meng chou. Belicia and i were thinking of asking him if we can call him MC. haha. chatted with Belicia and Raylene and they accompanied me to the bus stop. chatted about so many things then crystal came too. Belicia and Raylene said Cloudy with a chance of meatballs is good! and i so wanna watch it even more. Raylene also said that my sister's keeper is super sad and like practically all the ladies cried in the cinema. haha titanic number 2. they damn funny lah, miss them bloody much. then crystal and i took the bus while raylene and belicia went for bbtea.

Going for calculus lecture alone tomorrow. JH tried to get calculus thinking that he will score since he has a math background. haha NOT SO EASY TO GET HIGHER GPA UH. then ky we all going for sociology lecturer tgt on thursday. Ben is really random. he asked if i can go for his french lecture today or something. haha the deal was off cause he didnt want to come for my calculus. hahaha. oh wells. we cant have everything we want in life and sometimes you need to do things alone. like calculus and sociology. =( Jacq and i can slack tomorrow until our lectures start at 6. bloody hell so late. she's going for basics of nutrition and im going for calculus. im excited yet nervous to go for calculus. i hate it cause kimhock is teaching. DANG MAN. its time i prove that i can do calculus. what supportive friends i have. only tricks, simran and my family believes in me.

oh and did i mention i passed my final theory test? going t start driving in december. =) i miss playing guitar hero!! i love the drums. hopefully my brother will buy rockband. and i know so many new songs thanks to guitar hero. haha. yay yay yay. i need free unlimited sms.

and thanks jacq for giving me a holla when you saw - at CDS today. haha. thanks for the heads up, but i was on the way home already so yes. Best Bud! =) haha.

i here by promise myself to get my studies straight, to the best of my ability. Not get distracted by unnecessary issues and torres. except for this sunday cause its manu vs liverpool. haha.

THE END.

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 18:13:37 GMT

My second last day of holidays. woke up. went to t1. headed to simpang to tabao teh behng( cause its worth it). headed to lorettas house and had so much fun with guitar hero. i swear my hopes of being a drummer is gone, haha. empty dream but still a dream. drumming like how joey does is amazing. but im improving. going there again tomorrow. im so addicted to it. hopefully my mum doesnt disagree with my dad. he wants to buy it for me but idk. we'll see.

so then my whole mother side came, plus erik's friends. they super shy i swear but good at guitar hero. haha. damn cute. so then sha prepared so much food. then i brought drinks. played Happy family, Old maid, Barbie UNO. old school games but funny as HELL. i love it so much. its like playing with my cousins back in the day. what UNO catch nv say properly all that jazz. bully here and there. it spells FUN. haha okay so then decided to go and watch liverpools match instead of taboo. saw my cousins BF's brothers wedding in england. SUPER COOL AND GRAND. with the castle and such a beautiful garden and nice weather.

liverpools match disappointing. Torres and gerrard not playing= major killer. Johnson these days, super slow and not up to his previous standards. so i lost money but thanks to darren i was able to recroup most of my losses. simply by picking if he preferred number 3 or 4.

so i have to say i miss family gatherings like these and playing and laughing like hell with my cousins whom im rather close to since young. schools starting soon. and i hate it so much. so difficult to start my engine going after this hols. i need something to look forward to going to school and hopefully something good happens to me this sem. other than having kimhock as my calculus lecturer. and yes im being sarcastic there.

tomorrow. Up early for one month baby thing. off to play guitar hero. dinner. sleep. next day. school. commskills for 3 hours. see whos the tutor. wait and wait for MANU VS LIVERPOOL. hopefully torres playing. and not forgetting gerrard. then guitar hero!!!!!! haha. i cant co- ordinate my hands for the crazy parts. no talent means no talent. but all in all. GOOD DAY. GOOD DAY.